The Lord woke me today, with a dream at 2:55 am. I was in the back seat of David and Amy Lancaster's car as I shared my heart for the Lord. My heart was heavy because I was so hungry for God. I just wanted to see my Savior. I laid my head against my arm and closed my eyes. Amy said to David, "Isn't she still just so hungry for God!" As I closed my eyes to pray, I open my eyes to see, I was in a different vehicle and different people, and it had became night. It was a small team of about 5 or so.
As we continued driving I became very tired and a little fearful. I knew in my spirit that something was different. All of the sudden traffic was backed up. As tale lights glared in front of us, we were forced to slam on breaks. All vehicles were told by corrupt officials to get out of the cars. We were forced to walk quietly. In a single file line for what seems to be hours. The officials carried large black, thick sticks, as a threat.
As I looked over to my left, their were many African men laid down on their stomachs with machine gun next to them. Some still had their guns near by and others were dead. I looked down to see I had a machine gun strapped around me as well as the others in line. I looked upon the faces of the men who laid there in fear. As we walked passed one man looked at us and attempted to shoot at us. Many people were in the line, were shooting back at the men. One time I tried to shoot back in fear as I clutched on to this gun but my gun would not release the bullet. As I continued, I made eye contact with a man who was full of fear and possessed by the enemy. He grabbed his gun to shoot me, but I was filled with compassion for this man. I took my gun off of my body and laid it on the ground and said to the man "I love you." It was the Lord speaking through me.
When the officials saw this man move, he was shot in the head. Blood was quickly flowing out. Instantly, I said to others in line, Hurry, come on, JESUS IS GOING TO HEAL THIS MAN. People look at me as if they pitied my belief. I went to hold this man in my arms, as I heard the girl next to me say, "Your going to get blood on your clothes, don't touch him, just pray." I looked at her and said, "Who cares if I get blood on my clothes, Get over yourself and pray, Jesus is going to heal this man." As I began proclaiming the NAME OF JESUS, the blood stopped gushing. I began shouting, Jesus has healed this man. I heard people say "No, He is still dead and limp in your arms." But, I had seen the miracle, I KNEW GOD HAD HEALED HIM. I kept praying and looked back down as I am covered in blood and now his wound had turned into a scab. I was weeping in Thanksgiving to my God to heals! I looked again and it turned to a small scratch. People stood all around as if they felt sorry for me believing this. But then the man looked up at me, HE WAS ALIVE, JESUS HEALED HIM. I SAW THIS MAN, HE WAS DEAD AND GOD HEALED HIM." This man's entire countenance changed before my eyes, then he got up and followed after the calling of Jesus! THE LORD SPOKE TO ME AND SAID THAT WAS ME! AMEN!
Revelation of Dream: The Lord is the same yesterday, today and forever. He is the God that heals and sets free. I am to fear my God and to be fearless of the enemy! Praise Jesus!!!!! If we truly hunger and thirst after Jesus in fasting and prayer, he will use our hands. He will fill us with compassion! Praise God! Also, many times, Christians shoot back spiritually at lost people, instead of being filled with compassion for them. We should Love the soul and hate the demon. I was once lost and now am found! What if Jesus did not have compassion on you?
JESUS HEALS AND DELIVERS! WE ARE IN THE ARMY OF THE LORD!
"So now I am giving you a new commandment: Love each other, just as I have loved you, you should love each other. Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples."
The intimate and pursuing love of our Abba father has ravished my heart. Although I have known Christ for 5 years, it's as if I am just grasping a glimpse of the depths of his love. God's love is something beyond words, I become speechless at the thought of his pursuing touch.
I ponder on my previous life and my mind is boggled as I think of how he ran after me, longing for his daughter to run into his embrace.
I believe that I didn't truly understand his love because it is so supernatural, it is to deep to fully comprehend, but even a glimpse of it is enough to set my heart ablaze!
His love is something for so many years I have put in a box in comparison to love here on earth. When I failed, I expected him to be angry with me and leave, until I was without blame. But NO, his love was still pursuing. His love is something that can not be measured but something that only blesses us when we decide to believe it and choose to walk in his love!
"The Lord will hold you in his hand for all to see - splendid crown in the hand of God. Never again will you be called "The Forsaken City" or "The Desolate Land." Your new name will the "The City of God's Delight" and "The Bride of God." for the Lord delights in you and will claim you as his bride.
(Isaiah 62:3-4)
His love is so deep and so wide that even when we spit in the face of God his love is still pursuing full force to win our hearts and with compassion he says "Forgive them for they do not know what they are doing"... Mind boggling?
Being in Bangkok, Thailand our teams ministry has been to go into the forsaken land and show our Abba fathers pursuing love. We have been ministering in a bar called Nana's and Soi One. Many men come to the bars to find Asian women. The men can purchase a lady for 600 baht which is about $18 in American cash. These men are free to do whatever they want with these ladies. These women hate their work but the feel desperate for money. Many of them are single mothers working to feed their child and pay bills.
I have caught myself being angry and disgusted at these men that come and lust over these lovely women. These women who were created in the image of God and deserve to be treated with respect and beauty. Today, I had a friend write me in a email reminding me to hate the demons and love the soul.
We go in faith believing that these ladies and men will see a glimpse of our fathers love. If these ladies desire to come out of their present lifestyle, their exit is a ministry called "The Well." "The Well" is a prevention center for bar girls, as well as those who have decided to turn from the bar girl scene which allows young women to begin working by making and selling cards, purses and handcrafts. This teaches them to make money in a healthy way as they are being trained in the Word of God!
A few nights ago at a bar called "Soi One," A small girl caught Angel's eye. Her name is Beau and she is 14 years old. First approaching the bar to talk to her, the bar manager quickly says "She is not working here, she is family and is here for a holiday." We knew that this was not true. She infact was working for as a bar girl. The bar manager was telling us that Beau did not work there in fear that we were police. It is illegal for anyone under the age of 20 years old to work in the bars.
That night we paid Beau's bar fine, taking her to sing Karaoke, it was beautiful to see her smile and enjoy herself. She could smile knowing that she was safe. Jim is a man who is over "The Well." His heart broke in two when he saw Beau working in the bars. I felt as though I observed Jesus reach out to Beau with loving arms of grace. Jim said "I am getting her out of here, even if it means I must adobt her." Sure enough, Jim talked to her and that night we brought her home so she could peacefully rest. The following morning Beau and her friend who is 16 years old named Bun and was a dancer at the bars, came to visit "The Well," where there were about 12 other girls who understood their past and were trying to get her to come and join them at "The Well." Sure enough both Beau and Bun now are making and selling crafts for money and can safely sleep at night and be taught the word of God as well as english during the day.
In celebration for Beau and Bun leaving the Bars, We took all the girls out for dinner. It was beautiful so see them smile. I asked Beau if she was happy to be at the well she smiled and said, "Yes, I can Sleep." At 14 years old Beau was in fear of her conditions of her life when she woke the next morning. Praise God, Now sleep peacefully, waking in the morning secure.
"Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are in destitute. Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and needy." Proverbs 31:9,10
There are many stories of the Lord's protection and power that need to be told. But today's story is the one that renewed my vision of being a mother to the motherless. To love the unlovable!!!!
Today my co-leader Jen and I were casually walking to the grocery store, when a boy came to me sadly begging for money to eat. I said "We are going to eat, come." We brought him to a Java House where he was served Banana Pancakes topped with sugar. His face lit up when the plate was served in front of him. I gave him paper and pen to draw and the smile of his face was looking into the heart of Jesus.
My heart longed to know where Benson who is 8 yrs old came from, what is his story? How is his heart? Is he even loved or held?
I asked him "Benson, where is your mother?" Sadly he replied, "Dead", then I asked "And your father?" sadly he replied by shrubbing his sholders and said, "I do not know." I asked him, "Do you live in a house?" He said, "No, I live outside."
Despite having nothing, Benson was thrilled by warm pancakes and a pen and paper to draw. He smiled at me showing me a where he wrote "Mazungu", which means white person, laughter filled the java house. I was looking at the heart of God when i gazed in Benson's eyes and smile!
My heart ached for him knowing he doesn't have arms to hold him! Through this the Lord renewed the passion with in my soul, to be a mother to the motherless and to rescue children from destitute.
Jen and I will be waking early to meet Benson in the morning for warm pancakes while speaking truth into his soul! I believe my God can save Benson's soul and through his testimony many will be saved.
Please Pray for Benson and for the dead places to come alive in all the Nations.
After a long but delightful flight my team and I arrived safely to Kenya. We are all excited to be here. Here is a testimony of just how good God is! During training camp and before, I was not so excited to come to Kenya but our Lord is so good. This morning I woke up,hearing my team full of laughter outside my window. All of the sudden I was filled with love for them in a speacial way. I was glad to be here in Kenya. I am ready to go reach the place in destitute of our merciful God. The renewal of his love flooded my heart for his people. My prayer lately has been ''Lord may I have wreckless abandonment to self so I can have wreckless love for God and his people.'' I want to be beautifully wrecked for my King.
Please be in prayer for my team as they thirst and hunger for more of God! Thank you for your prayers and support.
I look around and see Spiritual Warfare all around. There is not enough words to explain what I feel for those who are decieved by the enemy. Looking into hopeless eyes truly believing there is zero hope for them. I have a friend who can look me dead in the eye and say "I am going to hell!" How can I have the truth so deep with in my heart and look her back in her eyes and not tell her the truth of Christ love? Every minute here on earth is Life or Death! Sometimes I feel as if I am walking around in Katrina, in the Flesh, observing souls that are dead, in the spirit! If you see someone drowning in the water, want you pull them out? It's up to us to come together and help pull them out. To help give them the love the may have never known. Life to the Lifeless!
Today at work I had a precious friend of mine who asked me how does one know if they are going to heaven? She said "I do not go to church like I should, but I want to go to heaven, and I think I believe in him." I began to explain that Church will never save anyone but it is about her relationship with Christ. I told her how it's more than believing but it's about her faith in our Lord and the fruit that she bares. She understood and said "Noone has ever told me that." Wow, Lord may my life help bring your life to the lifeless!
The Storm rages loudly as the child runs for shelter. The Child runs to her refuge, where she is secure. The Waves intensify and crash on every side of her refuge but she is not shaken. She is not moved or crushed because she ran to the place where she knew the raging waters could NOT harm her.
As this child runs into her refuge so I run into my fathers arms where I find my refuge.
Two more weeks and I am leaving to lead an ambassador trip to Kenya for one month. From Kenya I will be connecting to Thailand, where we will be ministering to the bar girls. Our vision is to bring "Jesus at the well" to their hearts. Many of these people will have never experienced the Love of Christ and this is a time to pour out his heart that is RAVISHED for THEM. Then our group will be heading to India to encourage and love the Children of Emmanuel Orphange and Asha House Orphange (House Of Hope).
I am still believing the Lord will bring in all the finances that are needed to reach his people!
This weekend my friends and I went on a refreshing get away! Katie, Rosie and I went to a beautiful Lake House and dedicated this time to the Lord. God has blessed me with amazing friends who enjoy living a life pleasing to God. We woke up early in the morning and had church over looking the beautiful Lake, with birds chirpping all around and the sun reflecting brightly from the water. The presence of God was intense! I give God the praise for my friends that he has blessed me with. The community of friends that I have is a picture of the church!
"When my cry came to your ears you gave me an answer."
Psalms 138:3
"Thorns and nets are in the way of the twisted: he who keeps watch over his soul will be far from them."
Proverbs 22:5
"Jesus said: I am the bread of life. He who comes to Me will never be in need of food, and he who has faith in Me will never be in need of drink."
John 6:35
"Jesus said: Heaven and earth will come to an end, but My words will not come to an end."
Matthew 24:35
"Jesus said: Heaven and earth will come to an end, but My words will not come to an end."
Matthew 24:35
"Lord, be my saviour from the lion's mouth"
Psalms 22:21
"For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show His might in behalf of those whose heart is blameless toward him"
2 Chronicles 16:9
"Jesus answered them: I say to you, if these men keep quiet, the very stones will be crying out."
Luke 19:40
"Let your moderation be known to all men. The Lord is at hand."
Philippians 4:5
"Jesus said: I am the Light of the world; he who comes with Me will not be walking in the dark but will have the light of life."
John 8:12
Who will go for him? He will come back! He will Return!!!!
In the dictionary it says "to give oneself up, as into the power of another; submit or yield."
There is a family who lived a comfortable life in their nice neighborhood. There was something with in them that could not sit still. Something with in them that desired to live a life so much more sacrificial for their God. The Lord told this family to move their lives to the darkest, hurting, depressed capital in their state to be the hands and feet of Jesus to the lost and dying souls in this dark community. These streets are loaded with lost souls high on crack, prostitution, homeless, starving, and abandoned. This family surrendered their lives to the Lord to bring hope to the hopeless.
There is a lady named Gloria. She is a prostitute on the street where this family lives. Gloria knocks on their door asking for food and lying for reason to receive money for crack. Gloria is alone, hurt, bitter, and depressed; walking along dark streets torminted by the devil. Gloria never leaves this families doorstep with out hearing who she has potential to be like in Christ. Gloria truly believes she is hopeless and their is no redemption for her life. Gloria walks away from this home of life saying, "If i died, I would burn in hell, and God would say he hates my sin, and would tell me to depart from him." Gloria, as of now is surrendering her life to the lies of the enemy drenching herself in the hopelessness of darkness.
These are two scenarios of surrendering. One surrendering to the One and Only God and one surrendering to the force of darkness!
I want to be ravished by his beauty where nothing else matters except to please my father. What does it mean to truly be ravished by his love? It means giving up the desires of self and taking up the cross and living to glorify him daily!
The other day I was talking to a friend. I was sharing my passion for God to her. I began telling her how I do not care about my own desires but I want to reach the hurting, and hold the dying. If It was the Lord's will for me to reach one child affected by sex trafficking, taking her/him and running and that causes me my life. Then fine. I am willing to die for my king. I want to be ravished by him
She looked me in the eyes and said Nichole I can see that you are dying to die for him, maybe he just wants you to live for him. Wow- yes to live ravished by him!
"When my cry came to your ears you gave me an answer."
"For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show His might in behalf of those whose heart is blameless toward him"
